Something Deeper

When I turned 28 last February, I observed certain changes in me, physically, spiritually and emotionally. I am entering a different phase in my life and it is not really a crisis, just yet.

Physically, I feel my metabolism has slowed down. What used to be a diet when I was younger seems to be the norm that must be sustained to just maintain my physique. On top of that, I need to work out harder to burn any indulgences if I don’t want to buy a whole new set of clothes. It was difficult to accept this at first because I grew up dancing ballet. It was so easy to stay fit because I had regular classes to go to. When I quit, I depended on my youthful body and metabolism. It is different now and I need to accept a certain limit that is no longer the same as the past.

Spiritually and emotionally, I seem to long for something deeper. Since I have been on a long distance relationship, I realized, more and more, how few deep relationships I have with friends. People come and go and I hope that I will sustain these quality relationships that I have. I know that some of these may not last forever as interests and life principles may change. I am more open to getting to know more people from all walks of life. I have yet to work on reaching out to folks far from my age group, both young and old.

I have had a blog for more than 10 years now and I know what it means to follow for the sake of gaining followers and genuinely following blogs because I truly enjoy them. I have a mix of both in my feed as I have had different whims at different points in time. I recently launched a new blog and Instagram account for my crochet endeavor, Joie De Vivre by Mariel, which made me question what type of account I was going to maintain.

As I read through blogs nowadays, I find myself longing for posts with substance, people I can connect with. I find joy in being able to read through the whole post and comment because I want to connect. It took a while to build this kind of feed as some folks are not able to maintain blog accounts after a while. Likewise for my Instagram account, I find myself following accounts that pique my interest, unfollowing those accounts which I followed for the sake of gaining followers. I am now at peace with myself if my followers dwindle once in a while because they do the same.

I am not sure if this longing was triggered by my long distance relationship but I am grateful for the quick connections on the internet that allow me to know people, even virtually.

This is me just saying that I miss you and our moments of long conversation.

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About Mariel Tan

Artist at heart who shares the spice in her life. Visit my blogs:


  1. It’s a natural thing, if you ask me. You tend to look for quality rather than quantity as you grow older, so part of that is trimming off a lot of things from the past. It’s akin to pruning a tree to make room for growth. πŸ˜‰

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